iwanttobesoft

i want to feel like the sun, warm, soft, bright and shining. yet, i also want to be mean, a villan, sharp and nasty. i’m trying to decipher the value i place onto my gaze versus the gaze of my counterparts; the man.
trying to reconstruct my conscious to develop a strong sense of self- gratification aside from the interests of others. deciding a perfect balance between 
gentle/silky/soft/tender and ugly/callous/unlovely/hard.